Z. Altius (
chimericalclaw) wrote2030-06-21 09:15 pm
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EXPIATION FLAVORED
⬬ the AI filled it out for him this time
⬬ saw something you weren't meant to see
⬬ the person he has to return to
⬬ the truth has to come to light
⬬ should have broken it a long time ago
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I'm rarely not busy, but go ahead. [He can handle a simple request as that, if only the boy makes it quick...]
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Uh, well, it's a question about some of the routes. I was just noticing that it might be easier to connect some of them. I think they can sort of loop.
If that makes sense.
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Show me.
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Uh, this one, I think. See? It might be easier if I go this way...
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Have you tried to take that path already?
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[Said without judgment, even if his expression and tone remain otherwise as dull as they have been. It would be a benefit for the boy to have given it a proper test run, but that would have been above and beyond for a task he hadn't been assigned. Besides, Altius is enough of a control freak that he'd want to check with his own eyes either way.
He marks the route on his tablet, then pulls out a small notebook from inside his jacket to take another note or two.]
I'll take a look myself. Thank you for bringing it to my attention.
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[Tsuna seems to accept this but, there's a silence as if he's making a decision.]
But are you sure you don't want help with it? You seem tired.
[There is a sense that Tsuna is not going to take no for an answer.]
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Perhaps it was foolish to think he could get out of it so easily. This may be his last chance to escape the interaction without any real damage done. His grip tightens around his pen, and it's clear enough he's having to force his words through something.]
I would prefer... to do it alone. If you don't mind.
[There's the sound of a crackling something, its origins unclear.]
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I think I kind of do.
Are you sure everything's okay?
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[fine, he started to say out of mere instinct, but it's a mistake all the same. A flicker of black energy sparks off of his shoulders with a CRACK and and wrenches a pained sound out of him, and he drops his pen.]
—sentencing!
[The single panicked word seems to have staved whatever effects off for this brief moment, but his breaths have turned shallow.]
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You're not fine. What kind of sentencing is this?
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I'm not allowed to lie. Don't ask me anything else. [There's an edge of desperation to the demand he couldn't hide even if he were to attempt it. But at despite that and the anxious way he doesn't look at Tsuna, he's managing to straighten up, notebook pressed against his chest.]
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[Even without asking, Tsuna can probably guess how Altius is feeling. Though, he's not really sure what he can do.]
Uh, tell me what I can do to help. I don't think whatever you're doing's working.
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I wish I knew, [he remarks, no attempt to mask his bitterness as he stoops down to pick up his pen.] Trying to seclude myself is almost as dangerous. The best I can do seems to be keeping things short.
[He can't afford to—
Stop thinking. Stop thinking. Stop thinking.
He stands, letting out a slow breath and attempting to empty his mind. For someone who overthinks everything, this is immensely difficult.]
I just have to keep it together until it's satisfied...
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[Oh whoops. He didn't mean to ask a question. But of course, now that the door's open...]
Wouldn't it also be easier to just. Go along with it? Instead of fighting, I mean.
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That's easy to say... for someone who never has to lie.
[The thought of using his commanding magic to cut the interaction short only sends another spike of static through the base of his skull; he takes in a sharp breath through his nose.]
Don't.
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But...I have to lie all the time.
[Maybe not here. Here he can be a little more relaxed with the truth. But back home? There's a lot he'd rather not get out. Even if he's learned the dangers of holding back information.]
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Unfortunately, he has to change that perception now. At least somewhat.]
Then you should understand.
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But also, I know that's not good to try to hold back information. That can end up hurting to.
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[Another crackle, a flinch. Keep it contained. You're stronger than this, Altius, this place won't break you after everything you've done and been through—]
They've made it literal, [he grits through his teeth.]
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[He sighs.]
But maybe that means you have to say something. You. You shouldn't have to keep hurting yourself like this.
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[Even saying that is dangerous by itself, for the possible questions that might arise, spoken or not—but the certainty that it's the only way to keep his power under control, to stave off the invisible hand that's tearing away his willpower, has settled in him like dread.
He takes a step back, but only one. He can't retreat; his legs are like lead, anchored by the need to confess.]
You have to leave...
[But that's not going to happen, is it.]
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You keep saying that.
I mean, I've faced a lot of danger.
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It's not a danger to you if I speak openly.
[A weak, shaky breath of a laugh leaves him, bitter. It's safer for all of them, isn't it? That he finally has to be honest.]
I'm the only one who suffers from fulfilling their task.
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